I am coming out of a funk as I write this. My creative energy has dipped in the last few months of 2020. I was enveloped in a holiday season, unlike any I had experienced before. I was also in a slight shame and guilt haze, which I was mindfully working through using compassionate self dialogue, a practice that is still very new to me. I was harboring feelings of guilt that I hadn't accomplished more during the pandemic, as if surviving wasn't enough of an accomplishment. During 2020, whenever someone confided in me that they felt bad about not doing more, I always reminded them to be compassionate with themselves because this shit is hard and we are all doing our best. And here I was, falling into the same trap.
The newly acquired resource I leaned into during this period was compassionate self dialogue, which I highly recommend. What does compassionate self dialogue look like? I gave myself permission to rest. I reminded myself that creativity flows like a river with seasons of rain and drought. I allowed myself to play and without the expectation of creation. I walked, smoked pot, allowed myself to drift, and trusted that I was allowing myself to recover, heal, and recharge. This practice fundamentally shifted the way I will ride out uncertainty moving forward, and I am deeply grateful.
Yesterday when I got into my car to run a random errand 5 minutes up the street, I caught "This American Life" on NPR. The show's theme was on delight and my five minute drive turned into a 1 hour meander from Echo Park to West Hollywood and back. The episode was exactly what I needed in this moment. That night I had the seedling of a fire in my belly and I could see the creative flood approaching. I don't know if my drought would have ended at a later point in time if I had not caught that NPR episode, I'm not sure if it could have ended sooner either. But the result of catching the Delight episode of TAL not only inspired me but filled me with delight. I wanted to gift that feeling to everyone I know.
We will be using this space to explore various themes each month and connecting them to soft skills. I am delighted that for the month of January we will focus on the theme of Delight. Catch the NPR episode here and share your thoughts with us about what delight means to you in the comments below!
The Show of Delights :